Okay, the dietary change is making a difference. I get full a lot faster, I don’t want to eat as much, my resistance to cravings is stronger, my sweet tooth has been largely replaced by my fruit tooth.
But I think I’m not eating enough.
I’m not one to go off and develop an eating disorder, and I don’t really deny myself things that I really, really want (as opposed to things I eat because I’m bored). But when I went to eDiets to enter in my meals from yesterday I discovered that I had consumed less than 1000 calories yesterday, even including a beer.
It’s a little disturbing. And I’ve really noticed a change… not necessarily for the better. While it’s been some time since I stepped on the scale, I do know that having a horrible headache – for two days – and being ten times more sarcastic and impatient than I usually am – is not healthy. Fat or skinny, I don’t want to be mean and gripy.
I’ve been trying to remind myself that I need to eat at least 400 calories at a meal, or snack on something healthy in between (gum and green tea is not a snack, it’s a diversion). I’ve reduced my caloric intake, but I need to find my way back to that happy medium so my brain doesn’t feel starved and angry, even if my stomach doesn’t care.